Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Scratch That.
So I left my minute by minute record of my day at work, so I'll have to type it up tomorrow. My b.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Things That I Want
Allow me to write one totally self-indulgent, soul-baring post. I usually don't express things like this, particularly in a public forum, but I guess any post is better than no post, so here goes. (Emily, you're going to make fun of me for how NOT soul-baring this is, and Jon, you're going to make fun of me for putting this all out there :) )
So I started writing this post in order to list the material things that I want (as sinful as that may be) so that when I someday make enough money that my paycheck isn't spent before I receive it, I can refer back to this list and buy the things I want. As I started writing, I realized that so many of the things that I am coveting are not actually material things. I opened a fortune cookie the other day that really struck me in its message: "You gain the stability you desire." I'm not sure when I'll be gaining that stability, but I saved the little slip of paper to give me something to look forward to in my most hair-pulling moments. While I have so much in my life to fulfill me, I am in a place of relative stress and instability where I snap at the people who care about me the most. I'd rather let my feelings out here on this blog that practically nobody reads than keep being a total grumpy pants every time I'm pushed to the edge. Feel free to ignore this emo post, but I thought that maybe putting it all in writing would be therapeutic. And if you feel like helping me in any of the following endeavors, you know where to find me :)
What I Want:
* A home. Not necessarily a place that I own, but a place where I don't always feel like a visitor.
* Opportunities to travel. I haven't been out of the state of Massachusetts since October. October!
* To be done with grad school. True story: I'm starting to have trouble breathing because of the stress.
* On the trivial side of things: an iphone. For awhile I was thinking that I didn't really want one but have come to the realization that iphone technology is the wave of the future.
* A job that pays me adequately given my education, abilities, and dedication. I want enough money so that I don't have to worry about buying a few ingredients for recipes that I will never use again, or an expensive pair of jeans at TJ Maxx.
* For the economy not to suck.
* For my friends to be closer.
* To be organized - physically and mentally.
* French manicures. I pamper myself less than anyone I know. I get my hair cut twice a year at most. I'm going to start getting my nails done.
* Time to do the things I used to do - read, make jewelry, cook, go shopping, spend time with my sister.
* To never feel like I am neglecting someone important.
* A car that I chose and bought, even if it's cheap and used.
* To have the time and energy to be healthier. I'm making strides, but it's a constant struggle to make this a consistent part of my life.
That's all I can think of...for now :)
So I started writing this post in order to list the material things that I want (as sinful as that may be) so that when I someday make enough money that my paycheck isn't spent before I receive it, I can refer back to this list and buy the things I want. As I started writing, I realized that so many of the things that I am coveting are not actually material things. I opened a fortune cookie the other day that really struck me in its message: "You gain the stability you desire." I'm not sure when I'll be gaining that stability, but I saved the little slip of paper to give me something to look forward to in my most hair-pulling moments. While I have so much in my life to fulfill me, I am in a place of relative stress and instability where I snap at the people who care about me the most. I'd rather let my feelings out here on this blog that practically nobody reads than keep being a total grumpy pants every time I'm pushed to the edge. Feel free to ignore this emo post, but I thought that maybe putting it all in writing would be therapeutic. And if you feel like helping me in any of the following endeavors, you know where to find me :)
What I Want:
* A home. Not necessarily a place that I own, but a place where I don't always feel like a visitor.
* Opportunities to travel. I haven't been out of the state of Massachusetts since October. October!
* To be done with grad school. True story: I'm starting to have trouble breathing because of the stress.
* On the trivial side of things: an iphone. For awhile I was thinking that I didn't really want one but have come to the realization that iphone technology is the wave of the future.
* A job that pays me adequately given my education, abilities, and dedication. I want enough money so that I don't have to worry about buying a few ingredients for recipes that I will never use again, or an expensive pair of jeans at TJ Maxx.
* For the economy not to suck.
* For my friends to be closer.
* To be organized - physically and mentally.
* French manicures. I pamper myself less than anyone I know. I get my hair cut twice a year at most. I'm going to start getting my nails done.
* Time to do the things I used to do - read, make jewelry, cook, go shopping, spend time with my sister.
* To never feel like I am neglecting someone important.
* A car that I chose and bought, even if it's cheap and used.
* To have the time and energy to be healthier. I'm making strides, but it's a constant struggle to make this a consistent part of my life.
That's all I can think of...for now :)
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Hello!
Wow, remember how I have a blog? I need to start using this again, after a good multi-month break. Unfortunately now that I am inspired to start posting again, I don't have anything to say. Hmm...
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